NIGHT BECKONINGS – 1
My being slumps into weariness
yearning to be enveloped in a cocoon of slumber,
but my mind is not at rest –
it teases me with transient thoughts
passing through on the way to somewhere
I crave for stillness
but random guests enter my head
I cannot turn them away
for they are also in need –
but like parasites they prey on me –
denying me my peace.
As I toss and turn,
some leave and some remain
and some return in a different form
sometimes stronger, sometimes weaker
but always there,
always lurking in the darkness of the night.
And then, without notice,
for no particular reason,
they all move on,
to another place, another time,
like a flock of birds
wheeling in the thermals,
flying as one – this way and that –
joined in unison as if tied by an invisible thread –
and then disappearing into the horizon
And I am left in peace at last.
NIGHT BECKONINGS – 2
As the world sleeps
I lie in wakefulness
alone in the company of the night.
The eerie stillness beckons me
to enter its world.
As I peer into the vortex of darkness
flickers of shadows
play with my thoughts as if to tease me.
I surrender to a world beyond the present –
one filled with regrets from the past
and possibilities for the future –
merging as one
like a gentle flowing stream
harbouring the dangers lurking beneath its surface.
Camouflaging its strong undertow
with the appearance of innocence.
I am a fallen branch
wedged in amongst the rocks.
The water streams across me and through me.
I so long for her to take me on her travels
but I must wait for nature to take its course
and free me in her own good time.
NIGHT BECKONINGS – 3
For what reason am I continually summoned to your world?
Is it to allow the flow of your thoughts in the stillness of the night?
For it is in the darkness that clarity appears
and in my sleep that I am most awake.
You play with my sub conscious
understanding it better than myself
as you piece together fears and hopes
that I thought unrelated.
When I let go of my angst
I enjoy our times together.
But I know when daybreak comes,
life’s demands will return
and I will pay the price for the time we have shared.
But you retain your hold
somehow you entice me to remain,
leading me to places where I dare not go alone.
Our thoughts emerge as one
and I must surrender to your wishes,
trusting that you will guide and protect me –
and you do – always, relentlessly,
as if aware of the fragility of my being,
encasing the darkness
in the knowledge
that soon dawn will come
and it will be light again.